Ayo waddup. So, PMR trial has just ended (26/07 till 01/08) and that means, FREEDOM BABY. Fuhh. Five torturing days, PMR candidates sitting in dewan, holding a pencil and a pen, answering all those hard questions, just to achieve our dream; straight As. It pretty much sounds crazy right I mean you sleep at 4am everyday just to read or do revisions to prepare for PMR. Damn.
A lot of things happened during the exam. And when I say "things", I meant shit stuffs.
Why? What? Something happened? Well yeah, someone just ruined my life. And I can't believe it happened during the exam week dammit. Actually, I was in a relationship with this guy, he's fifteen, just like me, but he's in the second class while I'm in the first class. We had been dating since Form 1 but we decided to break up since we are facing PMR this year, so yeah, it was a heartbreaking moment but it's for the best.
He said that he will wait for me until the end of PMR examination and I was like "uh yeah okay whatever as long as we're together after that then I'm fine with this". So I wait. Till now. It has been 6 months, I guess. But surprisingly, on last Friday, our school did iftar jamaie together with the teachers, and I heard his classmates said that he likes a girl from his class. Man, only God knows how sad and angry I was at that time.
I don't really care if he's dating with another girl, because I know, one day, this thing will happen. But it makes me angry that he doesn't even care about my feelings. Why wouldn't he tell me about it? Why didn't he just admit it? If only he tells me the truth earlier, then I won't be keeping my grudge on him (once I hate that person, I'll hate her/him, like, forever, duhh, and revenge is just my style okay it's a natural feeling).
I cried....... for two days. I've been dealing with the problem by myself. I don't really like to share it with my friends. I always thought that if I could deal with those bullshits, I could be stronger than before. But it just hurts. It hurts to know about these things. It hurts to know the truth. But it only hurts more to be the last person to acknowledge it.
I couldn't bear with the pain and I guessed sharing my problems with the right person won't hurt nobody so I told my friend, Sabrina, about it. I'm not really used to share my problems with her but I thought that she might cheer me up a lil bit. And yeah, she really did a great job at cheering me up.
For the first time after 48 hours I was in dilemma, I can finally smile again. I can finally put on that happy grin and show it to everyone, and it wasn't fake at all. And the best part is, I moved on. Damn that was quick. Hahaha. There is a quote that I had read before this, idek who wrote it, but it sounds like this:
Stop crying and keep smiling. He/she doesn't worth your tears.
It sounds nice isn't it? And I don't think I can get over this painful moment, but I will just go through it so that it reminds me my bitter past and so that I won't do it again in future. Also, to remind me that I need to find a boyfriend like pewdiepie. Damn guys you really need to check out his youtube channel! I've been subscribed to him since early 2013 and he never fails to make me laugh and cry, well that's because he is very kind to his BROs (bro is his fandom name). And seriously you need to ship him (real name is Felix) with his girlfriend (Marzia) because thEY ARE SO KAWAII DESU DO YOU EVEN FEEL ME????!?!
Okay guys. I'm gonna end this post here. I wrote a lot of things today, and blah blah blah, I know that I'm too young to have a boyfriend. But that's the point! It actually reminds me to not date a guy if you're still studying in schools because those guys are still students, and what's the point of having them to be your boyfriend if they still can't make money?! Lmao. That's all, bye!
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Ayo waddup. So, PMR trial has just ended (26/07 till 01/08) and that means, FREEDOM BABY. Fuhh. Five torturing days, PMR candidates sitting in dewan, holding a pencil and a pen, answering all those hard questions, just to achieve our dream; straight As. It pretty much sounds crazy right I mean you sleep at 4am everyday just to read or do revisions to prepare for PMR. Damn.
A lot of things happened during the exam. And when I say "things", I meant shit stuffs.
Why? What? Something happened? Well yeah, someone just ruined my life. And I can't believe it happened during the exam week dammit. Actually, I was in a relationship with this guy, he's fifteen, just like me, but he's in the second class while I'm in the first class. We had been dating since Form 1 but we decided to break up since we are facing PMR this year, so yeah, it was a heartbreaking moment but it's for the best.
He said that he will wait for me until the end of PMR examination and I was like "uh yeah okay whatever as long as we're together after that then I'm fine with this". So I wait. Till now. It has been 6 months, I guess. But surprisingly, on last Friday, our school did iftar jamaie together with the teachers, and I heard his classmates said that he likes a girl from his class. Man, only God knows how sad and angry I was at that time.
I don't really care if he's dating with another girl, because I know, one day, this thing will happen. But it makes me angry that he doesn't even care about my feelings. Why wouldn't he tell me about it? Why didn't he just admit it? If only he tells me the truth earlier, then I won't be keeping my grudge on him (once I hate that person, I'll hate her/him, like, forever, duhh, and revenge is just my style okay it's a natural feeling).
I cried....... for two days. I've been dealing with the problem by myself. I don't really like to share it with my friends. I always thought that if I could deal with those bullshits, I could be stronger than before. But it just hurts. It hurts to know about these things. It hurts to know the truth. But it only hurts more to be the last person to acknowledge it.
I couldn't bear with the pain and I guessed sharing my problems with the right person won't hurt nobody so I told my friend, Sabrina, about it. I'm not really used to share my problems with her but I thought that she might cheer me up a lil bit. And yeah, she really did a great job at cheering me up.
For the first time after 48 hours I was in dilemma, I can finally smile again. I can finally put on that happy grin and show it to everyone, and it wasn't fake at all. And the best part is, I moved on. Damn that was quick. Hahaha. There is a quote that I had read before this, idek who wrote it, but it sounds like this:
Stop crying and keep smiling. He/she doesn't worth your tears.
It sounds nice isn't it? And I don't think I can get over this painful moment, but I will just go through it so that it reminds me my bitter past and so that I won't do it again in future. Also, to remind me that I need to find a boyfriend like pewdiepie. Damn guys you really need to check out his youtube channel! I've been subscribed to him since early 2013 and he never fails to make me laugh and cry, well that's because he is very kind to his BROs (bro is his fandom name). And seriously you need to ship him (real name is Felix) with his girlfriend (Marzia) because thEY ARE SO KAWAII DESU DO YOU EVEN FEEL ME????!?!
Okay guys. I'm gonna end this post here. I wrote a lot of things today, and blah blah blah, I know that I'm too young to have a boyfriend. But that's the point! It actually reminds me to not date a guy if you're still studying in schools because those guys are still students, and what's the point of having them to be your boyfriend if they still can't make money?! Lmao. That's all, bye!
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Atiqah; a 15-year-old bastard. She stays in Johor Bahru. She studies at SMK Ulu Tiram. She wants to be a photographer in future. Her life is pretty much ruined by kpop. Likes to read english novel and watch horror movies. BIGBANG's Seungri probably had took over her heart (not that she complains about it tho).
She is not a good person. She is bad. She likes to judge people but she hates being judged. She also hates when people can overcome her smartness. Yeah, she is a competitive girl, in a nice way. She is a person that is hard to accept fates. She is just a normal human being, who doesn't have a strong heart.
She starts blogging since 2008 (more like the year she starts writing crap entries, heh). Had used and changed a lot of URLs before this. And she used to be known as Ae-cha.
She likes editing. She posts her edits on her tumblr. She had made over 400 graphics till now. She is known as seungriwaifu; the girl who loves and adores Seungri that much (bleurgh). She starts posting her artworks since 2011. She doesn't really know the people that always appear on her dash but she still likes their editing style. She hopes she can be one of the favourite editors on tumblr.
In her family, she is the eldest among the 4 siblings. She is pretty tall, her height is 161cm, and she is pretty fat as well. Uhm... let's not mention her weight shall we? Anyway, she likes to stay in her room. Laptop, foods and trashes are the main stuffs that can be found in her room. But the weird thing is, her room doesn't even smell stink. Cool right?
